Earlier this week, Kehlani and YG shut down the internet with news of their Compton coupledom, but her newfound relationship isn't the only major transformation that's happening in the 24-year-old singer's life these days. Along with becoming a mother to a now almost 6-month-old baby girl, Kehlani says that she's focused on becoming the best version of herself, for herself. In since-deleted tweets, Kehlani got real about how she almost let her anxiety block her bag and I can totally relate.
Despite the pressure that may be placed upon us in our personal lives, the world doesn't stop spinning on our behalf, and Kehlani learned this first hand after a very public breakup with her ex, Kyrie Irving. In 2016, the singer was hospitalized after a suicide attempt and left to pick up the pieces in from of the world. She tweeted:
"I never went outside much. I go to the studio and go home. I've dealt with 3 years of social anxiety and media related PTSD."
I can personally attest to a number of times that I almost allowed my lack of belief to block my blessing and Kehlani says that over time, the pressure of walking in her purpose almost led her to walk away from the industry for good:
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"I've stopped my own bag and slowed myself down for years because I was literally terrified of y'all. The internet. I shaved my head and moved across the country for a year. I drew up my contracts to quit. Ya'll are not about to reduce my newfound healing and confidence to PR."
Although Kehlani is a survivor of mental illness, in previous interviews, she's made it clear that she's not a victim. Three years ago on The Cruz Show, the entertainer explained:
"I wasn't a victim, you know what I mean. I'm never a victim, I refuse to be a victim—I'm not. It was really recovering from so many things at once…on the flip side, there's not too much that can hurt me now."
Now, the singer says that she is here to reclaim her time and her career, and it's all thanks to one little person that came into the world and became the source of her inspiration.
"Birthing my daughter gave me [a] battery in my f*cking back. I have someone to go extremely hard for. To face my fears for."
The singer says you can call her what you want, but one thing you will not do is call her on some petty sh*t. According to Kehlani, she's been working through her issues one day at a time knowing that ultimate, she's the only one who can stop her from shining.
"So f*** with me, or don't… because what matters is that I finally truly f*** with me and if you can't tell than you know absolutely nothing about me and that finally has no control of my life, to God be the glory man."
Featured image by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for iHeartMedia
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