

King Solomon once said that death and life are within the power of the tongue (Proverbs 18:21). What that basically means is, contrary to what pop culture likes to say, pretty much on repeat, it’s not just actions that mean something — words do as well. That’s why we need to be very clear and intentional about the ones that we speak.
This is something that I find myself saying to a friend of mine, fairly often, whenever she gets down on herself about not completing as many goals as she would like on any given day (or week or month). Now, mind you, she’s a single mom, she’s juggling three different careers, and one of them requires that she travel a fair amount.
And yet, in her eyes, if her mind tells her that it would like to go for a walk with no phone or her body tells her that it needs a nap before doing anything else, the first word that she uses to describe these feelings is “lazy;” meanwhile, I’ve been trying to get her into the habit of saying “tired” instead. Why? Because, even aside from Scripture, science also states that words program our mind — and if you don’t get into the habit of using the right ones, at the appropriate times, that could lead to unnecessary bouts of stress, anxiety, self-induced pressure, and disappointment.
So if, like my friend, you tend to use the word “lazy” a lot whenever you’re not able to check off as much on your to-do list as you would like, take a moment to learn (or revisit) the difference between what it means to be lazy and what it means to be tired — so that you can either change your lifestyle habits ASAP or you can give your mind, body and spirit the rest and TLC that it so richly deserves.
What It Actually Means to Be Lazy
Laziness is basically defined as doing whatever it takes to avoid work or activity. It also means that one is idle or sluggish. Some synonyms for lazy include apathetic (for the record, TIME published an article entitled, “It’s Harder Than Ever to Care About Anything” a few years back), careless, and passive. In my mind, whenever I think of how a lazy person lives, they pretty much just let life happen to them without much energy or effort on their part — and y’all, that ain’t good.
It's the late Kobe Bryant who once said, “I can't relate to lazy people. We don't speak the same language. I don't understand you. I don't want to understand you.” When you stop to think about the legacy that he left behind at only 41 years of age, him saying something like that definitely tracks. And since I am definitely a quotes girl, other ones that stand out when it comes to the topic of laziness include “Lazy people tend not to take chances, but express themselves by tearing down other's work” (Ann Rule), “Tomorrow is the only day in the year that appeals to a lazy man” (Jimmy Lyons) and “The only people who think life should be easy are lazy people.” (Robert Kiyosaki) Hmph.
Sounds to me like lazy people like to edit other people’s work rather than write their own stories (some of y’all will catch that later), procrastinate like a mutha (more on that in just a sec), and have an attitude of extreme entitlement (Lawd!).
Now, believe you me, I’m not saying that laziness is not a thing — hell, even an epidemic even in this country; there are plenty of articles out here to support that. All I’m saying is that before you call or consider yourself to be that, you should really ponder those quotes and also check out some actual ways that laziness presents itself.
1. Laziness procrastinates.
People who are easily distracted. People who put things off until the last minute. People who set goals and don’t follow through. People who (eh hem)blow hours on social media. People who struggle to get started and/or miss deadlines. These are all examples of what it means to be a procrastinator and since20 percent of Americans are considered to be chronic ones — yeah, that’s pretty problematic. It explains why many people who fall into this category don’t reach their goals and why many others are stressed out most of the time.
2. Laziness doesn’t take responsibility for its actions.
A lack of accountability is a form of laziness — for a billion different reasons. When you don’t take responsibility for the choices that you make, that keeps you from growing, holistically so, as an individual.
Personally, I have had to release many people over the course of my life because they keep on doing toxic ish and finding some way to blame it on everyone and everything but themselves — which just keeps the cyclic nonsense going.
Life has taught me that you can’t change folks; you can just step back, assess, and then decide if you want to participate in what they have going on…or not. Anyway, if you’re not intentional about growth, evolution, and where need be, transition, laziness definitely could be the culprit.
3. Laziness is full of excuses.
Speaking of not being accountable, a sign that someone is caught up in that matrix is if they are constantly making excuses for their actions (or lack thereof). Folks who get defensive when they are asked for explanations tend to make excuses. Folks who like to gaslight or deflect tend to make excuses. Folks, who will blame everyone, including their cat or dog, for why they fail to do certain things? They definitely make excuses.
And before some of you ask, yes, there is a difference between making a litany of excuses and offering up a viable explanation — an excuse skirts around matters while an explanation clarifies them. Lazy folks do the former. People who try to move in a mature and reliable space lean in to the latter.
4. Laziness doesn’t honor its commitments.
Wanna know two other synonyms for lazy? Inattentive and indifferent, and y’all, I can’t tell you how many times I have told a couple in a session whose marriage is crumbling that the main reason why is because one or both of them appear to be hella lazy — yep, by the mere definitions (well, synonyms) of the word. That’s why I’m not big on people solely doing things based on how they feel because all sorts of things can cause one’s feelings to change, pretty much on a dime. Not only that, but a commitment is supposed to supersede ever-changing feelings.
When you make a promise (or vow), you should do everything in your power to keep it and maintain it, which includes being attentive and not having an “oh well” or “ho-hum” attitude towards what or who you committed to. Lazy individuals? They don’t see it this way. They pretty much suck at committing because that requires actual…well, effort. Not to mention maturation and endurance.
5. Laziness chooses to waste time. Often.
A part of the reason why I wrote “These Bad Habits Are Totally Wasting Your Time” a few years back is because, without question, one of the absolute worst things that you could ever do is waste your time. Why? Because time is something that you can’t get back. Lazy people don’t really care about that because they tend to be pretty presumptuous when it comes to time — meaning, they tend to jack theirs off because they think one of my favorite Chinese proverbs quotes is a joke: “It’s later than you think.”
While self-aware people make the most of their time, lazy people don’t value it very much…at all.
What It Truly Means to Be Tired
Okay, so now that you’ve reviewed what laziness looks like, can you relate or, no? The truth is that, at some point or another, all of us display certain signs of being lazy; the thing to keep in mind is having a lazy moment or day is very different than being a lazy individual, in general.
And what if you read all of those lazy points, and they definitely didn’t “scratch the itch” of what you’ve got going on right now? If that is indeed the case, have you ever stopped to consider that you are genuinely tired?
Here are five signs of how that typically manifests:
1. You’ve overwhelmed.
I currently have a client who picks the oddest hill to die on. Although he admits that he’s a supreme workaholic, and it causes him to not give his best at home when it comes to his family, whenever I respond to that by saying that he is overwhelmed, for some reason, he almost always pushes back.
For some reason, he sees that word as a sign of weakness when I know that it simply means that he is A) overworked, B) dealing with too much pressure and/or stress from their professional and/or personal relationships, and/or C) has way too much on their plate.
And when that is the case, it’s easy to either feel some sort of mental or emotional paralysis or to become so confused or burdened that you’re not exactly sure what you should do (next). That doesn’t mean you’re lazy. More times than not, what you are is drained. Exhausted even. And this brings me to the next point.
2. You’re exhausted.
A couple of years ago, Women’s Health published an article entitled, “Why Am I Always So Tired? 15 Reasons You’re Dealing With Seriously Low Energy And Fatigue.” Some of the reasons that it listed include allergies, underlying health issues, eating too much sugar and carbs (which can cause your energy levels to spike and then crash), being sleep-deprived, having low iron levels, dealing with a thyroid problem and/or being super stressed out.
To me, the biggest takeaway that comes from this one is if you’re so worn out that you can’t seem to get anything done, journal about your eating and sleeping habits for a week and definitely make an appointment to see your doctor. Not having the energy to do anything isn’t “laziness” — it’s usually a health and/or lifestyle-related issue.
3. You don’t prioritize your needs.
Wanna know some signs that you don’t prioritize yourself? You don’t have some sort of TLC maintenance like mani/pedis, facials, and/or massages on your (regular) schedule. You feel guilty when you make yourself unavailable to other people. You can’t remember the last time you did something for yourself without wondering if you should’ve put it off or done something for someone else instead.
You basically feel like you’re on autopilot. You rarely do things just for the fun of it. Pretty much all of us have heard that we can’t be much good to others if we’re already running on fumes, and if you’re not making you and your needs a top priority in your life, that is exactly how you are moving throughout this thing called life.
4. You never salute your efforts.
Something that I’ve noticed is a trait of overly ambitious people is all that they really focus on is what’s next. What I mean by that is, that whenever they set a goal and accomplish it, they rarely (if ever) make the time to celebrate what they’ve done. Instead, they just move on to the next thing on their list. The problem with this mindset is you’re never going to stop growing until you die in pretty much any area of your life.
And so, if all you think about is what you need to do next, at some point, it can either lead to feelings of discontentment or even discouragement if you’re not careful — and both of these can take a real toll on your mind, body and spirit.
That’s why (and I’ve said this many times before), I try to make it a habit to toast myself at the end of each and every day. Why? Because each day is new, which means that there is something that I’ve done — big or small — that has gotten me closer to the type of person I want to become or where in my life that I want to be, and saluting that helps me to feel revitalized instead of weary or depleted. That said, when was the last time that you celebrated yourself? Real talk.
5. You don’t take (regular) breaks.
If you don’t utilize your breaks and lunchtime at work, if you don’t take naps every once in a while, if you don’t choose a day during the week to get off of the grid (at least for half of the day), if you don’t go on a vacation at least once a year (even if it’s just for a long weekend) — you are not good at taking breaks, and that can definitely cause you to feel super tired sooner or later.
Earlier this year, USA Today published, "Americans are the worst (globally) at taking vacation time." Since vacations help to relax and de-stress you, if you can’t remember the last time that you went on one — no wonder you are so damn tired.
5 Tips for Feeling Less Tired
Aight, so what if you just read through all of the tired points and realized that you really have been too hard on yourself — that not being able to get as much done isn’t because you’re lazy, and it really is because you’re simply…tired? If that is indeed the case, here are five hacks that can help to revive and reactivate you…at least a lil’ bit.
1. Identify the source.
Person, place, thing, idea — all of the above. If you’re feeling tapped out, the first thing you need to do is figure out who and/or what is the cause. If it’s your job, are you staying past the time that you need to leave? If it’s your kids, do you have them on a schedule (especially when it comes to bedtime)? If it’s a friend, is it a functional (give and take) or dysfunctional (you’re doing most of the giving) situation?
Being tired is your mind or body’s way of letting you know that something is out of balance. Identifying the source is how you can restore things back to where they need to be.
2. Set better boundaries.
A writer by the name of Jessica Moore once said, “Our boundaries define our personal space — and we need to be sovereign there in order to be able to step into our full power and potential.” Author Brené Brown once said, “When we fail to set boundaries and hold people accountable, we feel used and mistreated. This is why we sometimes attack who they are, which is far more hurtful than addressing a behavior or a choice.”
A quote that is used in one of my email signatures is by another author named Nick Chellsen; it says, “Boundaries are what you say 'no' to. Priorities are what you say 'yes' to.” All of these things speak to being okay with saying “no” sometimes and for remembering that you have more power over your world than you think, no matter what requests or pseudo-demands people try to put on you.
3. Shorten your to-do list.
To-do lists are great because they can help you organize your time, which ultimately means that you are organizing your life. That said, if you’ve never heard of the 1-3-5 rule, consider implementing it for the next couple of weeks.
The gist is that you jot down nine things that you need (or want) to get done on a daily basis: one big thing, three medium-sized things, and five small things. Try to do the biggest thing first, and the rest should relatively be a breeze.
An exercise like this is bomb because not only will it “train” you to be more realistic with your time (so that you don’t get overwhelmed by trying to do too much in a 24-hour cycle), but it will give you a great sense of accomplishment once you’ve checked everything off at the end of each day.
4. Give yourself a daily 30-minute break.
Something that I will sometimes recommend married clients do is to greet each other at the end of the day and then leave each other alone for 30-45 minutes so that they can “reprogram” their psyche from work to home life. So many find it to be uber effective because, as a husband-friend of mine oftentimes says, “If we’re constantly going from one atmosphere to the next without slowing down, all we end up doing is ‘stripping our gears.’”
Those are some serious words of wisdom right there. So yeah, after work, before doing ANYTHING, take 30 minutes to just…chill: sip on some tea, take a quick nap, do some meditating — whatever doesn’t require a ton of energy or effort and will get you to slow down for a sec.
5. Plan for a life of balance.
I’ll end here. Again, being tired means that you need to bring something back into balance, and, as a wise person once said the word, “Life is all about balance. You don’t always need to be getting stuff done. Sometimes, it’s perfectly okay, and absolutely necessary, to shut down, kick back and do nothing. If you work hard, play hard, and rest well; that’s what balance is all about.
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If you know that you’ve got some lazy habits that need to change, there is no time like the present to do so. However, if you just got the confirmation that you need that you are T-I-R-E-D, listen to yourself and do what needs to be done…which is probably less…for now.
Listen, there’s absolutely no shame in being tired — just ignoring your mind or body when it tells you so.
So, stop feeling guilty, so that you can get to feeling better. Amen, sis? Selah.
NOW REST.
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It's kinda wild that, in 2025, my byline will have appeared on this platform for (what?!) seven years. And yeah, when I'm not waxing poetic on here about sex, relationships and then...more sex and relationships, I am working as a certified marriage life coach, helping to birth babies (as a doula) or penning for other places (oftentimes under pen names).
As some of you know, something that I've been "threatening" to do for a few years now is write another book. Welp, October 2024 was the month that I "gave birth" to my third one: 'Inside of Me 2.0: My Story. With a 20-Year Lens'. It's fitting considering I hit a milestone during the same year.
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As far as where to find me, I continue to be MIA on the social media front and I honestly don't know if that will ever change. Still, if you need to hit me up about something *that has nothing to do with pitching on the site (I'm gonna start ignoring those emails because...boundaries)*, hit me up at missnosipho@gmail.com. I'll do what I can. ;)
Love Is The Muse: How Skylar And Temi Built A Creative Life Together
When Temitope Ibisanmi DM’d the word “muse” to Skylar Marshai, he knew he was shooting his romantic shot. He didn’t realize, however, that he was connecting with his future business and creative partner, too.
“I was the boyfriend,” Temi says. “Everybody out there knows, you’re the cameraman at that point.”
Skylar sees things differently. At the time, she was shooting content on her iPhone. Temi came into the picture with a new perspective, an understanding of tech, and, eventually, a camera. “He doesn't give himself enough credit,” Skylar says. “He wasn't just my tripod. He wasn't just standing behind the camera and going ‘click.’ He was giving advice. He was giving me insight to how I could look at things from a different perspective. And I was like, 'Oh, he’s an artist.' I think it was maybe a heartbeat of that kind of energy of like, ‘Baby, can you take this picture?’ And it turned so quickly into, we're partners. We can work together in a way where we're advancing each other's creative thinking.”
The pair often says they’re two sides of the same coin. Skylar is an Aquarius. She attended art school, paints, and loves poetry. She’s more than happy to let the couple’s management firm and agency, Kensington Grey, handle their admin work. And, she loves to sleep in. Temi, on the other hand, wakes up early. He’s a Virgo. He loves a to-do list and regularly checks in on the couple’s brand partnerships spreadsheet to make sure everything is on track.
Because his storytelling was steeped in his love of technology, he didn’t always think of himself as a creative person. “Where I [am] the dreamer who wants to pluck things out of the sky and spend all day with my head in the clouds, Temi [is] so good at grounding me and helping me figure out how to make things make sense on paper. We just work together in such a complimentary way,” Skylar says.
It’s been more than six years since Brooklyn-based couple Temi and Skylar started dating, and nearly four since they cemented their working relationship. On TikTok and Instagram, the couple’s travel, fashion, and home content regularly rack up hundreds of thousands of views. They’ve worked with brands such as Coach, Aesop, Away, and Liquid IV, bringing their vibrant perspectives to every campaign they execute. Still, nearly two years since both Temi and Skylar committed to full-time content creation and creative directing, the couple says their romantic connection remains their priority.
“We told each other we would much rather go back to full-time jobs and preserve our relationship than to be full-time freelancers, barely getting a night's rest [and] barely kissing each other because we're so busy shooting,” Skylar says.
Working from home can make it hard to separate work from personal life for any entrepreneur. It can be even more challenging when your business partner is also your lover. Temi and Skylar had already used couples therapy as a tool to help them effectively communicate with one another. When they ran into challenges while working together, their therapist helped them set physical boundaries to help combat the issues.
"We told each other we would much rather go back to full-time jobs and preserve our relationship than to be full-time freelancers, barely getting a night's rest [and] barely kissing each other because we're so busy shooting."
“It actually took us doing very specific physical things to create boundaries between work and play in our relationship,” Skylar says. “So, for instance, we will only have conversations about work when we're out of bed or we're at the table or in the office. Initially, when we started, we had to light a candle to say that, 'Okay, this is a space where we're connecting, we’re not talking about work.' We needed really hard boundaries at the top. And then it became a little bit more organic.”
The boundaries have been crucial to implement, especially because the couple began working together so naturally. When the pair first met, Skylar was NY-based a social strategist for BuzzFeed and was using content creation to drive business to her lingerie company. She was shooting her own content. Temi was working for Microsoft in D.C. He’d recently traded in his DJing equipment for a camera. “I've always loved taking pictures,” he says. “Even when I was a kid, my African mother would wake me up at 3:00 a.m. [during a] party, and be like, 'Come take the family picture.'”
Growing up, Temi says he watched his parents support each other and be the true definition of partners. He knew he wanted the same for his own relationship. But, the couple also wanted to make sure they were being financially responsible. The pair didn’t quit their traditional jobs until they’d saved up two years' worth of their cost of living. And, Temi received his Master of Business Administration from New York University with the knowledge that it could either help him advance in his corporate career or be applicable to his business with Skylar.
Today, they say their working relationship is more of a “quiet dance.” They still implement some of the boundaries they learned in therapy, but they also lean into their natural strengths and deep love for one another. When we speak, Temi has planned a date for the couple to see Princess Mononoke in 4K IMAX and added it to their Notion so they can factor it into their busy schedules. “I fully plan to date for the rest of my life,” he says.
Skylar says the couple doesn’t just wait for date nights to check in with one another, though. This often happens in the mornings, after Temi has made her peppermint tea and poured himself a cup of coffee. When they ask each other how they slept, she says, it’s not just a “nicety.” It’s a genuine question meant to foster connection.
“A lot of it happens during the day in the midst of work. We'll stop and we'll hug. Or we’ll slow dance in the kitchen,” she says. “Sometimes it's hard to set a whole date night when you have 7,000 things going on. So, we must grasp these moments and check in when we can. And I think it's become so organic to us that I actually didn't even realize how often we do it. But all day long, we're like, 'Are you good? I felt like your energy shifted,' because we're best friends, we just know. We just feel it happen.”
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We All Mess Up Sometimes. But Can You Trust A Friend's Apology?
Although what I mostly deal with when it comes to the clients that I have is romantic relationships, there are definitely times when other topics come up. For instance, recently, someone was talking to me about some drama that they were going through with a friend of theirs. Emotionally, they felt like they were in a bit of a bind because while, on one hand, they had been friends with this individual for over 15 years at this point, on the other, there were certain things that they had done, more than once, that were starting to take its toll.
When I asked my client if they had clearly articulated their feelings, concerns, and boundaries to that individual, they admitted that they hadn’t.
From their perspective, their friend should simply know what they should and shouldn’t do. Yeah, one day, I’m going to write an article about how a lot of relationships could be spared so much drama if we all stopped automatically expecting others to think, act, and even love like we do. Anyway, my client did pause for a moment; then she shared that there was one thing, in particular, that she had told her friend that she didn’t appreciate and her friend just kept on doing it — so much to the point where it was starting to feel not only intentional but disrespectful too. In response to that, here’s how the rest of the dialogue between us went down:
Me: “Did she apologize?”
Her: “I mean, after I about lost it and told her that I was sick of her sh-t, she did. I don’t know if I can trust it, though.”
Me: “Has the action happened again since?”
Her: “The last time was only a few weeks ago. It’s too soon to tell. I know I’m starting to put distance between us, though. I’m not sure if I want to be friends with her anymore at this point.”
*le sigh* What to do, what to freakin’ do, when you’ve got a friend in your life who does something that bothers, offends, hurts, or harms you (because those are all different things, y’all), they apologize and you’re not exactly sure what to do with their apology. That is something that I’m pretty sure that all of us have gone through, probably more than once. If you definitely have, and there have been times when it’s left you feeling stumped, let’s unpack it all a bit — just so you’ll know how to move, with complete peace of mind, for the sake of your friendship and, most importantly, your peace of mind.
People with Regrets Apologize (and Every Self-Aware Human Should Have Regrets)
Sometime last year, I was talking to a friend of mine about his spouse. As he was raving about all of the things that he adores about her, something that he said caused my eyes to get semi-big: “I mean, she doesn’t believe in apologizing which can get on my nerves but that’s about it.” Whew, chile. Also, another article for another time: It’s very hard for a marriage to function, in a healthy way, if both people aren’t willing to apologize and forgive because there are going to be countless times when doing one or the other is going to be extremely necessary. Why?
Because we all make mistakes and sometimes poor decisions (and no, those two things aren’t the same either) must be corrected with an apology. Not only that but we all also experience times when someone needs to apologize to us and, because of the first thing that I said, we should forgive them and LET. IT. GO.
Yeah, those “I don’t apologize” people? Talk about folks who I don’t trust because that typically either means that they have way too much pride going on or they suck and taking personal accountability for their actions — and neither of those things makes it easy when it comes to trying to have a solid relationship with someone else. Honestly, the only kind of folks who “cause me to pause” more are the ones who claim that they don’t have any regrets in life. Truly…what in the world are you talking about?
If you’ve been rocking with me on this platform for a while now, you already know that I totally and completely loathe the saying, “I don’t regret anything” (check out “Why Regret Might Not Always Be A Bad Thing”). SMDH. Some statements, I just think that they have been popular for so long that people repeat them without really thinking about what they actually mean.
When it comes to regret, if you look up its definition, you should see the word “remorse” somewhere in there and remorse means “deep and painful regret for wrongdoing; compunction” — and if you NEVER feel this way, that low-key sounds like either you think that you never do anything wrong (which is a completely delusional mindset) or you don’t care to “right your wrongs” whenever you do them (which makes you a pretty unsafe individual to be around).
And why am I laying down all of this foundation? Because, before getting into how to discern someone’s apology, it’s important to first surround yourself with individuals who even get that they should apologize from time to time in the first place — not because you think so but because they think so. I’m telling you, it can spare you a ton of time and potential heartbreak to follow this tip.
I say that because I ended a relationship about six years ago, mostly because the person reached out to me to help them out with something, and when I wrote out a full email about something they did that was highly offensive and would result in my not obliging them — not only did they not apologize, they didn’t even acknowledge what I said. What kind of makes it “comically worse” (utter audacity-wise) is the few times that I’ve seen them since, they’ve acted like nothing even happened. Then I had to think back to other times when I’ve brought hurt feelings or offenses to their attention and how they would deflect, play the victim, or change the subject (bookmark that).
Hmph. We talk about narcissism a lot both on and offline — uh-huh, be careful about those narcissistic friends out here. They always want to be the center of attention. They constantly put their own needs first. They have a hard time forgiving and yet think that you should dismiss whatever they do that’s wrong (or damaging). I could go on and on about those jokers. For now, I’ll just bring this point to a close by saying that if you want to trust someone’s apology, you need to trust that they care enough to apologize in the first place. And lawd, won’t that preach?
Next point.
Karma Is Attached to Apologies
One day, I’m also going to write an article about how much forgiveness tends to be weaponized — and how absolutely insane that is. Meaning, so many people think that they deserve an apology for all of the things that they do while others don’t — and that’s not really how forgiveness works. If you’re looking at it from a Scriptural standpoint, the Good Book tells us that if you want to be right with God, you’ve got to forgive other people (Matthew 6:14-15). Science says that if you want to be healthy, it’s wise to forgive as well. Adding to both of these things, since karma (which is basically just reaping what you sow) doesn’t discriminate, if you want to be forgiven in the future, you should forgive others in the present.
And that’s what I mean when I say that karma is attached to apologies. When it comes to some completely bold and If-I-were-a-different-type-of-person-things-would’ve-gone-very-differently things that have happened to me throughout the years — what has kept things peaceful and put me on a faster track to healing is choosing to forgive others; especially when they make a point to apologize (check out “How I Learned To Forgive People In My Life Who Weren't Sorry”).
Honestly, a part of the reason why I can do closure so well is because I can accept an apology. What I mean by that is I think a lot of times, we stay in “hamster wheel relationships” (same problems, no new solutions) or we’re so super devastated (because we’re not just sad, we also beat ourselves up with guilt and yes, regret) if something should happen to someone who we used to be in relationship with and it’s partly because we don’t accept apologies.
Me? I never want to be so high and mighty in my mindset that I think I can gamble my relationship with God or my health simply because I want someone to think that what they do and ask forgiveness doesn’t deserve mercy while I’m somewhere thinking that I should be pardoned for all of my mess. I don’t know about y’all but I need God’s forgiveness, plus, it feels good — cleansing even — whenever people who I’ve hurt or harmed have forgiven me and so I give forgiveness in order to receive it — because every single human needs to receive it.
Next point.
A Sincere Apology Doesn't Deflect, Justify or Play the Victim. It Takes Full Ownership.
Now that we’ve talked about why you should only befriend people who forgive and apologize and how you shouldn’t be in relationships if you don’t know how to forgive (and apologize) — let’s talk about what a sincere apology should even look like.
Years ago, I had a friend who violated a very clear boundary of mine. She kept trying to push something on me that I didn’t want to do until one day, she did it anyway. And boy, was I pissed. When she saw how angry I was, she called me crying and, although she did say that she was sorry, she also went into all kinds of reasons why she thought that she was the bigger victim. The more that I listened, it was like she wanted me to apologize to her for violating me (whew, chile). Yeah, don’t trust those kinds of apologies because they are chocked full of manipulation.
And this is where we start to tiptoe into the difference between accepting an apology and trusting one.
Since she literally said, “I’m so sorry,” I accepted her apology because, although I think that my discernment is pretty keen and she was trying to manipulate matters, at the end of the day, who am I to brush off her efforts to acknowledge what she did? Did I trust her apology, though? Absolutely not because to trust something, you’ve gotta be confident in it, and anyone who decides to make what they did to you totally about them? They don’t really get what an apology is all about.
Hmph. I grew up with people who would apologize and also deflect (shift blame, gaslight, go into semi-denial mode), justify poor behavior (make excuses, follow their apology with some long ass story) and/or play the victim (act like they are more hurt than you are) in the midst of their apologies and those types of individuals typically only apologize in order to “move on” from what they’ve done — not to really make sure that you are okay about what had transpired.
And those people? Whether they are too selfish, not self-aware enough or they’re simply ignorant about what a sincere apology looks like, if those three factors come into play, their apology can be accepted yet not really trusted in the sense of you believing that they will do their best to not repeat the action again. How could you TRUST it if they don’t fully OWN it? Make sense?
Next point.
Accepting Apologies and Actually Trusting Them Are Quite Different
If you know that someday, you will need to apologize to someone, you will get again why I say that none of us should really refuse someone else’s apology. Another way of looking at this is if someone apologizes and you don’t accept it, it’s basically saying, “I don’t acknowledge that you acknowledge what you did that you are trying to take responsibility for” — and honestly, what kind of sense does that make?
Because while you are thinking that not accepting their apology is harming them, it’s really only hurting you because you are choosing to hold onto what their apology has actually released them from. Plus, y’all know that I am pretty word-literal and, at the end of the day, accepting an apology simply means that 1) you are responding to what they are saying and 2) you are receiving the effort. Over and out.
Now TRUSTING an apology? Again, that is something entirely different. I’ll give you another example. Everyone who knows me (check out “5 Signs You Really Know A Person”) knows that if I come out to a big function, that’s love — DEEP LOVE. Back when I was an entertainment journalist, I had my fill of stuff like that; these days, low-key is how I get down. Anyway, one time, a friend invited me out to a crowded and pretty important function. After a bit of convincing, I made the personal request of not wanting to go along with someone else in their world who I am not fond of (who they are now not even friends with because they discovered on their own just how shady the person can be).
My friend assured me that it wouldn’t be an issue — only for me to get to the place where we were meeting up and my friend then telling me on the way to the venue that the person would be joining us. When I tell you that we literally had the conversation about that not happening just a few hours before? Chile. My response? I left before we headed there and went back home. I am BIG on my boundaries being respected and I’m not going to be set up to be put in a position to somehow be the bad guy if I’m not kee-keeing with someone who I didn’t want to be around, intimately, in the first place. Plus, my friend needed to fully enjoy her night without worrying about what the energy was going to be like.
My friend owned that it was “bad business” to even move like that — that it was thoughtless and a bit manipulative on her part because a part of her thought that if I was pushed to the wall on the matter, I would just get over it. She apologized. I accepted it. However, I didn’t just accept it, I trusted it because, a few weeks later, she invited me to another event, out of state, all expenses paid.
Listen, if you know me, you know that it wasn’t the free trip that “moved me” because my favorite place is always gonna be at home. LOL. It’s that my friend didn’t just acknowledge what she did, she also took it upon herself to make amends — and that’s what a real apology should always include.
And what is amends? It’s “reparation or compensation for a loss, damage, or injury of any kind; recompense.” That said, when we really get the weight and magnitude of something that we’ve done to another person, it’s never enough to just toss a flippant “My bad” in their direction — it’s important to put forth the effort to set things right.
I got that my friend understood how much effort it took for me to do the initial outing with her in the first place because she took a few steps up from that and turned another event into a girls' trip — just us. That was a couple of years ago now. We’ve not had an issue in that lane since.
Your friend who hurt you and apologized? One way to know if you can trust the apology to the point where you know that it’s okay to move on fully from the matter is if they are willing, on their own, to make amends. If, in their own way, they ask you, “How can I make this right?” If you get that from them, I really recommend that you give them a chance because not only does it seem like their apology is heartfelt, but they also want to help you to heal from what they did — and at the end of the day, because none of us can change the past, just “own” our part in it, there’s not much more that a human can do.
Plus, people who go so far as to make amends, they typically also put forth the effort to try and change their behavior (or not repeat the action). And again, what more can you really ask for from any fallible individual (and we are all that)…right?
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No one is perfect. We’re all going to mess up. If you really get that, when a friend apologizes to you, let both of yourselves off of the hook and accept it. And during the apology, if they take full ownership which includes making amends, trust your friend enough to have faith that they will try to not hurt you, in that way, again.
Accept is about recognizing.
Trusting is about putting your confidence in something.
When it comes to apologies, specifically, I hope it’s easier to now know the difference.
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