I Challenged Myself To Be Single For A Year And This Is What Happened
Two hours before the start of this year I experienced a heartbreak that crushed my soul.
The guy I had been seeing on-and-off for the past three years had asked me for a “break.” This was not the first time I had experienced this kind of talk with him, but this time it was on New Year’s Eve. Two hours before midnight when I should have been preparing for a New Year's kiss, I was instead wiping my tears.
I thought things between us were fine. We had not gotten into any arguments in months. I thought we were finally vibin’ on the same wavelength; however, two weeks before Christmas I noticed a slight change in him. At first, I thought it was just me, but his cold and distant aura could be felt on the phone or anytime I came near him. He began to drift away from me day by day.
I eventually asked him if everything was alright between us and he reassured me it was, but then on December 31st he hit me with the typical, “it’s not you, it’s me” speech. I was left angry, less at him, but more at myself. I had just spent a year of my life spreading myself thin trying to chase my dreams, juggling a budding modeling career, and also making time for a relationship where I felt like I was putting in way more effort than I felt was being reciprocated.
It is not even as if men ask us to give, we just do it anyway out of love--unconditional love.
I saw the break as two things. First, it was a sign that I was in a relationship where the man I was in love with treated me more like a convenience while inconveniencing me. His inconsistent actions proved it. I realized that I had the choice to either continue to remain in this on-and-off again cycle or painfully let go and move on.
I also saw the breakup on New Year’s Eve as a sign that I should be single for the year. He of course came back trying to make things right, but the damage was already done. I was fed up. I promised myself that in the new year would be the year of me--the year to be selfishly dedicated to myself.
In an interview with New York Times Magazine, Rihanna dished about how she didn't have time for dating because she was fully dedicated to her work:
“Guys need attention. They need that nourishment, that little stroke of the ego that gets them by every now and then. I’ll give it to my family, I’ll give it to my work — but I will not give it to a man right now.’’
And she is right!
It was not until I truly began focusing on myself and what I wanted to accomplish for the year that I realized that being single has been one of the best things to happen to me.
These past 10 months have been one of the best consecutive 10 months of my life.
I have grown.
I have become more independent.
I have found happiness with just being by myself.
I’ve had more career triumphs and opportunities that I have been able to take advantage of.
I even got the chance to travel for work to Paris, and I spent an extra week exploring the city meeting old friends and making new--something that I always dreamed of, but never saw myself doing or probably would have never done if I was still in that relationship.
I feel somewhat disconnected to the girl I used to be 10 months ago, who was more obsessed with her relationship problems versus her own well-being. I feel more in-tune with the young woman I am blossoming to be.
Rihanna said it perfectly. Guys need attention and ego stroking. Relationships in general need a lot of attention to grow and build. Timing is everything. This place that I am in right now in life has taught me that it is okay to be single. Everything happens for a reason.
We need to be single sometimes so that we are solely committed and focused on our work, and goals and being in a happy space in our life before inviting someone to share that happy space with us.
“It’s all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a self-love deficit.” ― Eartha Kitt
It’s funny and strange to think that a heartbreak has brought me blessings because it allowed me to refocus myself and dedicate my time and energy to being a happier me.
What are some important lessons being single has taught you in life?
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When discussing the topic of raising children, discipline is often the first thing that comes to mind. Children need discipline. Full stop. But what is discipline? And how do we draw the line between discipline and revenge?
The origin of the word "discipline" can be traced back to the Latin word "disciplina," which means "instruction" or "teaching." Over time, however, discipline has come to be synonymous with punishment, with parents relying on shame, fear, and/or physical pain to curb undesirable behavior.
Teaching takes time, so nipping it in the bud in whatever fashion parents deem necessary (within reason) has become the norm. But is this what’s best for children? And when does it become less about curbing undesirable behavior and more about getting our licks back for offenses we feel our children should know better to do?
In my work as a parenting coach, I’ve often heard parents say, “I asked him nicely three times before spanking him. He didn’t stop doing it until I did, so clearly talking doesn’t work.”
And the parent isn’t wrong. Talking often doesn’t work the first, the third, or the even the 10th time. And the reason is directly tied to brain development.
Children cannot and do not process information the way an adult can. Auditory processing is not fully developed until a child is 14 or 15 years old. And even then, if a child has auditory processing delays or Auditory Processing Disorder (APD), they may always struggle with processing auditory commands. According to Susie S. Loraine, MA, CCC-SLP, the term auditory processing refers to how the brain perceives and interprets sound information. Several skills determine auditory processing ability—or listening success. They develop in a general four-step hierarchy, but all work together and are essential for daily listening.
Without this understanding, discipline can easily become revenge because parents will then view their child’s misdeeds as a personal slight. Instead of teaching them to do better, parents now want to show them the consequences of not doing better. This is why it's imperative for parents to discern between discipline and revenge to maintain healthy relationships with their children.
5 WAYS TO DISTINGUISH BETWEEN PARENTAL GUIDANCE AND RETALIATION:Â Â
​Understanding The Intent
Discipline is rooted in love and concern for the child's well-being. It focuses on teaching lessons and helping children understand the consequences of their actions. Conversely, revenge-driven actions stem from a desire to inflict pain or punishment as payback for perceived slights or disobedience. Parents should reflect on their motives before taking disciplinary actions. Ask yourself whether your intention is to help your child learn or to make them suffer for upsetting you.
Example: If a child accidentally breaks a valuable item, a disciplinary response would involve discussing the importance of being careful and working with the child to come up with a way to replace or fix what they’ve broken. On the other hand, a vengeful reaction might involve yelling, harsh punishment, or bringing up past mistakes to intensify guilt.
​Maintaining Emotional Regulation
Effective discipline requires parents to remain calm and composed, even in challenging situations. It's natural to feel upset or frustrated when children misbehave, but responding with anger or resentment can escalate the situation and blur the line between discipline and revenge. Before addressing the issue, take a moment to breathe and collect your thoughts.
Example: If a child cannot follow instructions, a disciplined response would involve calmly explaining why their cooperation is necessary in working with the child to accomplish the goal. Conversely, a retaliatory response might involve shouting, name-calling, or resorting to physical punishment out of anger.
​Promoting Growth and Learning
Discipline should always aim to promote growth and learning. It involves guiding children toward making better choices and understanding the impact of their actions on themselves and others. Effective discipline strategies include positive reinforcement, setting clear expectations, and providing opportunities for reflection and growth.
Example: If a child repeatedly forgets to complete their chores, a disciplinary approach would involve discussing the importance of responsibility and finding solutions together, such as creating a chore chart or setting reminders with Siri or Alexa. In contrast, a revenge-driven response might involve imposing overly harsh punishments or belittling the child, which can undermine their self-esteem and hinder their ability to learn from their mistakes.
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Building Trust and Communication
Trust and open communication are essential components of a healthy parent-child relationship. Discipline should strengthen this bond by fostering trust and encouraging children to confide in their parents without fear of judgment or retaliation. When children feel safe and supported, they're more likely to accept discipline as a form of guidance rather than punishment.
Example: If a child admits to breaking a rule or making a mistake, a disciplined response would involve listening to their perspective, discussing the consequences of their actions, and working together to find a solution. Conversely, a retaliatory response might involve accusations, blame, or shutting down communication, which can erode trust and damage the parent-child relationship.
Seeking Professional Guidance
Parenting is a learning journey, and, disciplining children is a delicate balance between guiding them toward responsible behavior and nurturing their growth. By understanding the intent behind our actions, maintaining emotional regulation, promoting growth and learning, building trust and communication, and seeking professional guidance when needed, as parents we can help our children built on love, respect, and understanding.
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